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The world is full of sharp edges
Like everyone, I have gone through many iterations. As a child, I was relatively happy. I remember thinking well of myself and feeling safe to move through my parts of the world. I remember the first time my perception of myself was challenged. And I remember the sudden shift into self-awareness that was forced on…
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A very unfortunate matchmaker
When I was in college, there was this guy. Okay, there were a lot of guys. Guys that could’ve become more than just guys if I’d let them. And I think that’s how I have to think about it sometimes—that I didn’t let them. That I was the problem. Maybe it wasn’t me. Maybe it…
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1:09 a.m.
Aw crapNot againI know the wayThat this story ends I try to stuff itDown deep in my bonesAnd pray that these feelingsJust leave me alone He’ll tell me no9 times out of 10They all tell me no“You’re such a great friend” And I just can’t bear itThe same sad sorry songThe pain that will take…
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Heartache and beauty
It’s almost been a whole year since I received the news that one of my friends took her own life. This was, unfortunately, not the first time I lost someone to suicide. I was 16 the first time. It was more formative than I would’ve liked for it to have been (mostly because I would’ve…
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On my mind
What’s been on my mind lately? Everything. So many things. Too many things. I used to journal more but I gave it up in 2020. When my entire world felt like it was upside down, there was just too much to say and plugging my ears against it felt easier. Maybe I never should’ve stopped.…
