Category: musings
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The world is full of sharp edges
Like everyone, I have gone through many iterations. As a child, I was relatively happy. I remember thinking well of myself and feeling safe to move through my parts of the world. I remember the first time my perception of myself was challenged. And I remember the sudden shift into self-awareness that was forced on…
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A very unfortunate matchmaker
When I was in college, there was this guy. Okay, there were a lot of guys. Guys that could’ve become more than just guys if I’d let them. And I think that’s how I have to think about it sometimes—that I didn’t let them. That I was the problem. Maybe it wasn’t me. Maybe it…
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Heartache and beauty
It’s almost been a whole year since I received the news that one of my friends took her own life. This was, unfortunately, not the first time I lost someone to suicide. I was 16 the first time. It was more formative than I would’ve liked for it to have been (mostly because I would’ve…
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On my mind
What’s been on my mind lately? Everything. So many things. Too many things. I used to journal more but I gave it up in 2020. When my entire world felt like it was upside down, there was just too much to say and plugging my ears against it felt easier. Maybe I never should’ve stopped.…
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This year has been.
This year marked the beginning of my 30th trip around the sun. If you’ve taken time to read my first post on here, you’re probably already familiar with the general tone of my life as of late. Sometimes it feels like life is just a whirlwind of healing and getting hurt and healing again. I…
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Expand your imagination
For as long as I can remember, I have dreamed of romance. Whether it was the sweet desire to weave my fingers together with someone else’s or the strange pull in my gut to grab that guy in math class and kiss him on the lips, I have wanted a man to love me for…
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How I lost 30 pounds in one hour
I promise you that that title isn’t just clickbait. I really did lose 30 pounds in one hour. Chances are, you can’t. And, honestly, I don’t recommend it. Buckle up because it’s story time and this is a long one. The year was 2019 It was 2019 and I was in the throes of heartbreak.…
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Reflections
It’s hard to write a reflection on this year because so much has happened. There was a lot of good, day-to-day, mundane sort of moments. They’re hard to recall because they were not particularly noteworthy as they happened. I know they were there and I appreciate them for what they were. There were also a…
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